Eternal Hippies A Year Homemade and Beyond

Yesterday I had two radiation doctor's appointments. I went to the first one on time and was told he doctor didn't need to see me. When why schedule the appointment? I'm not sure. But that's not what got me. After waiting in the patient waiting room for nearly an hour, I as told that my other appointment that day was given to another patient in more "critical" need. Okay, so why not call me to reschedule so I wasn't wasting both my time and a day off without pay???!!! Now I had to ask for yet another unpaid day off next week to get done what should have been done yesterday. I understand that other patients take priority to me, but why not call me? If I had done that to them, I would have been billed. Well, I lost 1/2 of my weekly pay for no reason and next week I have to come in on a day off to make up the time I will loose next week. A simple phone call to me would have prevented this mess. I am already worn out and feel like I constantly need a nap...

Yesterday I had a ct scan. It went okay, but I wasn't able to drive myself. I couldn't get a handle on some mean vertigo. It lasted all morning. Tomorrow, I have a radiation appointment that is supposed to last much of the day. Then on Friday afternoon I have a doctor's appointment to find out the results of the ct scan. Hoping for good news. At some point we are going to visit Joe's mom and I think we will have a bed at her house. Last two times we had to bring our tent, but the person who occupied that space has left permanently. Sigh, drama. I am just happy to get away for a few moments. But we haven't worked out the details for a trip. We had a wonderful early Christmas gift from my co-workers. New tires for the van! What a wonderful surprise! We were also given some cash, which immediately went towards my medical bills. Still owe thousands of dollars, but it was a start. We are trying to knock the medical bills down to a manageable level, but we are far f...

Here at work the mood staying jolly during the holidays. Even when we are busy, everyone has a smile on their face. Until today... It happened after several luncheons had taken place and most people were gone. An older woman, who had left, came back in to get her coast when she fell on in the lobby. The floor is porcelain and she fell on her face and arm. Lots of blood and screaming. I called 911 while my boss helped the woman stay calm and a team of coworkers fanned out to find her husband. We all worked well and she is now at the hospital. The EMT workers did a great job taking care of her. But the reality of it all has sunk in and can be seen on everyone's faces. Concern, worry and I know for me, panic. It only takes a moment, just one, to cause the whole world to change. One horrible act, where by intent or accident, to turn everything upside down. My boss turned on Christmas music to try to lighten the mood, but I think it will take awhile to go back to the light heart...

It's been a week that I had my latest chemo treatment. I am starting to feel human again, instead of a poisoned marmoset. I have decided to forgo the wig and instead sport pretty chemo caps that go with my work clothes. After work, I opt for beanies, toboggans, or whatever you care to call them. Both the chemo caps and cap liners I got off of Ebay stores. Here are some examples of me at work: In a previous post, you can see my big bald head as I stand with my eldest son, Sean. It was so good to spend time with him. I hope to get to do with the rest of my children. Rachael it's easier since she lives just down the road. So, no wigs. Now, last week was my last chemo treatment until after radiation, which won't start until January. We hope to visit Joe's side of the family soon for the holidays. He hasn't seen them in awhile. We hope to finish decorating for the holidays and I will post our setup. Spoiler alert: there will lots of bears and Santa! Peac...